Yup. Just up and left. I had been pretending to work for a while. Whatever male hamster excuse I can make up doesn’t matter. I wasn’t happy there so I did something about it. In the week since I haven’t done much of anything. No new blog posts. A lot of thinking and ideas, not much action.
I did trip on mushrooms on Saturday. And by trip I mean I went to another dimension. I saw my spirit guide telling me to let go and truly love myself. I felt the world ending and complete happiness. I understood everything about creation and screamed “I AM GOD” at the top of my lungs. I was so far gone that it was like I was watching a movie of myself. Fucking weird. I still haven’t fully come to terms with what I experienced and can’t wait to do it again at about half the dose I took on Saturday. I can say that for the most part, my first week of freedom has been a wash. Ya I’ve been to the gym every day. But I also have been eating too many calories. Ya I’ve had more free time, but I’ve been misusing it terribly. What I say I want to get do and what I end up doing are complete opposites.
I say I want to write my first book, start making youtube videos, quit smoking, get shredded and start increasing my income.
But what I end up doing is fucking off online, smoking cigarettes (because they “help me think”, bullshit jeremy and you know it).
I thought the mushroom trip would have all the answers for me, but by taking so much and warping into the subconscious dimension, the trip wasn’t as productive as I envisioned. It was still eye opening for sure. But not as life changing as I had hoped. There was a point about an hour in to my trip where I had come to logical conclusions about life and existence, but that went out the window when it really kicked in. I’ll prolly write a whole separate post about the trip just to help myself make sense of it all so I won’t get into too much detail here.
So where do I go from here?
I have the vision in my head. It’s just a matter of putting it into action and exercising my will power over distraction. I should prolly get back to my 21 Points of Glory mode now that I have all the time in the world, excuses won’t fly anymore. It’s put up or shut up.
So my next post will be an updated 21 points to glory freedom edition.